One year anniversary

     I've been thinking what should I blog these few days. Finally I decided to blog about who I was and who I am now. It is a huge difference for me, my friends, and family.

     I've been in US for 1 year and 6 days I guess. Not to deny my personality has changed and I am super in love with who I am now. When I first came to US, believe me, it was totally chaos. I can't speak English (I can understand what people talking about by catching a few keywords), can't understand the menus, and homesick. Now, my English still sucks, but it's getting better. Normal daily conversation isn't that hard for me. Oh ya, I still facing one shitty problem. I can't get used to talking in English with Malaysian Chinese. I don't know, it's just weird. Probably a Malaysian Chinese criticized my English was weird before. It makes me kind of have phobia right now. wtf right. Yea, this is who I am, have no confidence in myself. lol

     Speaking about personality changes, the most significant difference is that I seldom put myself in a negative state and have negative thought anymore. Before I came here, whenever I am free, I always felt that emptiness deep inside. Probably caused by my family problems. I have a complicated family. My friends always told me how they're surprised when I can get through so many ups and downs without getting crazy. I am a tough woman huh. :) The first few months in US, I had a problem of mingling with American and ENGLISH-EDUCATED Malaysian. Now, this problem is no longer exist. I figured out a way to make myself feel better. *When they laugh at my English, I laughed at their Chinese. It's basically a round.* Just kidding, I never did that, haha I don't want to adopt that personality that I hate that much. An advise for me would be relax yourself and open your heart, it's okay that you speak broken English, as long as you dare to speak, and can bear with all those sarcastic comments lol.

    I should be born in US. The learning experience in US is fantastic. I scored better here as compared to Malaysia. If my English is smooth, it would be more awesome. hahaha. I am living in a small and peaceful town now. Haih. We should have handsome vampires and wolves like the Vampire Diaries here to make this town sounds more exciting. *It is actually not that bad, IU ranked as 1st in term of party university* If someone like Klaus appears, I am gonna be the huge fan of him. LIKE A HUGE HUGE FAN. Off of topic .__.

    YEA, one more exciting news for me! Khor Ching Yee is coming TT So excited. We came from the same primary school and high school. My future housemate <3

    Will blog more soon! Stay tuned.

Dream

Success kid's dream comes true! yay! I just got admitted into Kelley School of Business. :D

Tried so hard. Before I came to states. I had to make a decision between Fisher College of Business and Kelley School of Business. Trust me, it's one of the hardest decisions I have ever made. I worried about whether I can meet the admission requirement, the requirement stated on my admission letter kind of freaked me out. I have to achieve 83 for every subject before I got admitted. Kind of scary. How if I can't meet? Have to transfer school or change my major? 1st choice I labelled it as waste parents' money, second choice is kind of reluctant. I love business, it's my passion. I know many people picked business because they don't know what they want, but I always know what I want. Luckily after two semester of hard work, everything got paid off! I did it! For god sake. hahaha.

So, please don't afraid to make a change you should give everything a try or a shoot, if you can't make it I believe it's still worthwhile because you will eliminate the possibilities of regret!

Lastly! say yay to Kelley and I'm proud to be a hoosier :)

Beb..

It is 3am now.. I don't know why.... I just feel like blogging at this time.. Probably it has been so long so long... I used to be very emo a few months ago.. Almost everyday I felt like there was a stone exert pressure on my heart.. I can't breath... Everything happened around me tended to take my breath away.. I spent my energy, with all the energy I had to hide it.. No.. I didn't hide.. I would rather say "cure"..

I am a sensitive person. Whenever I heard a story, even I was not the character, I still can feel.

I know I know you are my best friend. Even we aren't close like what we used to be.. I thought our friendship is disappearing, everything fades. But why the feeling is still so hurt.. Why I can still feel you...........

You know how hard I tried not to cry yesterday.. I know that's something bad happened on you. I know we aren't close anymore. I didn't expect  you will tell me what happened.. What I can do.. I can only tell you "life is awesome, suck it up and move on".. But after I saw what you replied.. Trust me I heard two hearts were broken..  One is yours and another one is mine.. You asked me to trust you no matter what others say about you...

Memories crossing my mind.... I know you are always a tough person.. I was the one who always cried and you were the one who console me like a big sister. How helpless you are now..... I really hope I was there.. I will protect you with all my energy with my sword with all the things I have...

You are my best friend.. Always do.. No matter what others said.. I will trust you.. I know you better than others do.. We know each other since primary school..

Lemme be the one who can protect you. Even I'm thousand miles always. My soul is there..with you...fighting against all the things that hurt you.. Beb.. Take care yourself.. This is life. Even the one you trust the most will betray you one day.. People go people come in your life..

I really hope you're okay.. You are a good girl.. I wonder why God is there to give you so much... Over the limit you can accept.. God. Please treat her good.

Homesick

  Aww. My blog is dead. :(

  This semester is a busy semester. Fuck all these shits. I am taking 7 subjects this semester, stressing me out. That's fine! I can "conquer" them! :)

  Aww. I had rushed for a business fraternity, Alpha Kappa Psi. It was really a fun experience. However, I failed to get into that business fraternity. Quite upset actually.

  I miss my brothers. Finally got to chat with my youngest brother last night, it's been so long since the last time. When is the last time? Two months ago, I guess? Miss all the things in Malaysia! My family, my buddies, my friends my teacher, the food, the people, and the hot weather!