Here're some of the photos about my University! :) All these photos taken by using iPhone 4s and the filters.
The signature of IU, Sample Gate.
The stadium! :) Took this at 7.30am. So it looks nice even unedited :P
Does it looks real? This is shown beside the Musical Arts Center.
Forgot where I took this. But looks nice! I love purple color :)
The TIS bookstore
Indiana promise! :) This is important for the students to know about.
Picnic sessions.
My lovely roommate and floormate! Lexi(Left), Me(Middle), and Andrea (Left)
All of us again! In front of the sample gate.
Oops. Seriously Americans love to jog. You can see people jog everywhere and anytime. Imagine under -1 degree, they can still wear a short pant and jogging. Oh Jeez.
A corner in the Memorial Union. It's a hotel, but students love to study in the lobby. Me too. I love to sleep on the sofa. lol
My major is undecided, but definitely related to business. I love business, and I don't know why. I can feel the excitement when I am taking those business courses. I am trying hard to get into the Kelley Business School, I have to maintain my result at 83 for every subject. Freaking hard -__- But I will try.
Teaching methods in US has a big difference compared to Malaysia. In Malaysia, all I done, was "hard core" for the tests and finals two or three days before, and I just wish I can pass. If I still continuing my study life in Malaysia, planning to get a Bachelor's degree in Malaysia now, I can imagine what happens to my life now. I will have a normal life just like others do. I would finish my degree in 4 years time, maybe work as a normal clerk after I graduated. But I can find my passionate here, all the professors are good. They don't want you leant everything from the textbooks, they want you to do a lots of case study, and don't only memorize the theories, practical practical practical are what they wanted. Of course, you can't bring your study habit from Malaysia to US, you have to study before classes, know what your professors are going to talk about, because what they give you in classes are only brief summary, and revise the class materials after class. I have at least 5 assignments per week. All assignments have to hand in online. Normally, after a class, you will have one assignment for that class.
Finished the wonderful part, below is not really a good part, just skip if you don't like. I also don't like this part. Firstly, hands up if you are from SMK, but you didn't speak English when your secondary times school and with your family. I AM! :)
Yes. I am studying in US, but my English sucks. :( I have to say, don't come here if you don't have a strong heart, but fragile one just like me. I can't count how many times I been hurt because of my English, but definitely more than those days when I was in Malaysia. hahahaha
I told Panda, Idk why I can speak English more fluently, but not good in front of Americans compared to Malaysian, maybe I'm worried that I would be laughed by Malaysians. Yes, they did. I had to go for the pronunciation class the first eight weeks when semester started. I don't feel shy to tell this, because I know my English sucks. While, when I pronounce wrongly in front of my Malaysian friends they laughed at me. I was not mad, just got frustrated. Then, they complained to others, I don't want speak English. Fine. I really think about this seriously, I think it's my fault. Since, I'm in US, I should try I should try to speak English, not Cantonese, Hokkien or Chinese, these Asian languages, I can speak this when I back to Asia. I really tried I swear I did try, I want to learn I want to improve. Just like yesterday, when I spoke English to Ee Leng, she just said to my face "Why your English so weird one? I feel like you're reading rather than speaking English" You guys can imagine how frustrated I was, just like a knife stab into my heart. LOL no joke. It felt hurt. Then I just switch back to my lovely Asian language for the whole conversation, at least I feel safe. So, when you guys know something would definitely hurt you, would you still try? No, right? So, please don't complain me please don't judge me. I know you guys wanted me to learn, but please please don't do this to me. You guys never know what I felt when you guys said this to me. What you guys expected from me. Talk like a native Americans in the first year? I know I am worse than you guys, but I didn't speak English when I was in home. I am trying trying. Can you guys care about my feelings, at least 40%? I know the world is cruel, but you guys are also Malaysian. Why you guys wanted to hurt someone who came from the same country. Or you guys just think I bring shame for our country. All these shits I also don't want it happens in my life. Just like, what they told me, let me lose my confidence at all. I really gave a thought about "Did I make a right choice, did I? Should I just pick up Taiwan, China or just stay in Malaysia?" Do you guys know what you guys are doing? Strangling my dream I dreamt once. But you guys know? You guys care?
I don't think my story can inspire who is going to overseas study, probably make them afraid. But I really wish you guys can be tough, after you go through all these, you can grow, you can improve. I am not. I need some times to adjust my mood. Give me some time............please..........................
I will try I really will try, after I get my confidence back......
Now, I miss my lovely people back to the hometown, the wind, the smell of paddy.
Who cares me, who knows me, who loves me in US? It's so hard to find a person who accepts who I am in US.
I started to understand the feeling "you would never change the world, only the world changes you."
I need someone to hold me up.....
