谣言

谣言止于智者，全都是屁话。
这句话的真实性，中学就已经体验过了不是吗？
无可否认，想到，心还是会疼，泪还是会掉。
就算那个人多聪明也好，他对流言总是会负荷的，不是吗?
我知道我自己总是说，我不要回头看，我要往前走，要不然过去的恶魔总有一天会让我无法负荷。
可是，那又怎样呢？
我总是让过去束缚我自己。
一首歌，就那把我拉进那无底的漩涡。
如果有选择，我也想要有选择性失忆，好吗？
有谁在听过流言后，会向当事人求证的。
听多了一方面的说辞，你总会护着那方的不是吗？
可是被贬低的那一方，有多受伤，你们懂吗？
对你们来说，可能那个流言，可以是笑话，可以是八卦，可是伤害会随着话题当事人的一生。

可是，至少，在我们受伤害的时候
有一双耳朵，倾听我们的苦。
有一个怀抱，收容我们的泪。
那是一个安慰。
永远不要在你朋友最困难的时候，选择相信流言，背弃你的朋友。
你或许不懂你是他那时唯一的依靠。
唯一的安慰。
唯一.....坚持活下去的动力。

家人、朋友、情人。

就是把人生构架起来的基本条件，不是吗？

我永远都会记得，那些，在我跌到的时候，扶我一把的人。
我珍惜我们的感情。

我姐说，我的朋友很好，真的很好。
我也很庆幸，像我这样的人可以拥有那么好的朋友。
我知道我们的友谊不会过去。
朋友，真的很重要。
家人，也很重要。

有一些人，坚强微笑的面具下总是伤痕累累的心。
那是因为，他们找不到一个人可以放心地对他们释放心底的不安全感。
你或许会成为那个带给人安全感的人，不是吗？

听说，每个人来到世上总是一个缺了角的圈圈，只有不停的寻寻觅觅才能找到属于自己的那块角。如果勉强接受一个角，只会让圈圈无法滚动，无法走更远的路。

我希望我可以找到属于我的角，而我们互相依赖。

依赖不代表你懦弱，依赖性强并不羞耻。
重点是，一生中，究竟有多少个人愿意让你依赖，他们不顾流言，牵起你的手，与你相守一生。别人伤害，抵触你的时候，他会为你挡掉所有的风雨。

珍惜你身边的人，珍惜生命。

自杀的念头，谁没有。
离开的人并不痛苦，真正痛苦的人是被留下的人。
你解脱了，留下的人呢？
他们往后的生活怎么过？
Love life!



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Something about me.

1. I smile after I fall down, only if there was not bleeding. I still remember when Form 4, we organized a camp at Keat Hwa. I saw YeeLing Lim and I was very excited, I ran towards her, and I fall down, I cried out immediately, it was so painful and there was lots of blood. A big and overlasting scar is on my foot now. It reminds me, must control myself, don't TOO excited sometimes, it will bring hurts. My mum and grandma scolded me after that, they said it was ugly. LOL. Nvm. A gift from Chinese Society's camp.

2. I turn on light when I sleep, only if there is no one sleeps beside me. I am a sensitive person, I can hear sounds very clearly at night, even tough the sounds are not loud. That's why I realized a damn thief go into my room, and shouted out loudly. I still remember this incident happened when I was form 5, around 5am, I woke up and realized the light in my room's bathroom was on, I saw something in front of me, I touched, and realized it was hair, and I saw my brother was sleeping beside me. Yii, who was it. I switched on the light beside me, the person looked at me. Damn. Who was him?!! I can't response in a second, and then my mind cleared after a second, I shouted at him, just a meaningless "Arghhh" Then he ran away. I had touched a thief's hair. Did you guys try before? HAHAHA.

3. I am a cry baby. I cried when I was quarreling with someone, when I was watching movies. Okay. I cried more than 3 time when I was watching TRANSFORMER. I still remember I watched this movie with Qiu Li in the cinema, and she was kinda shocked.  Vey touch mahhhh. :p

4. I was used to be emo at night, that''s why you guys can read my emo status on Facebook at night, family, friends and ex's stuffs make me emo, normally.

5. I love desserts. Cakes are the most, that's why I'm fat. Tiramisu and chocolate cakes are always my love!!

6. I am a tv monster. I can watch until morning, or didn't sleep for a day. Although I know, the movie is always there.

7. I love my brothers and sister more than my parents. hahaha! They do so. I think so.

8. I can't speak Hokkien very well, although Hokkien is spoken by my family. When there is a conversation between family and relatives in Hokkien, I usually response in Chinese, when I spoke Hokkien, they said :" Please speak Chinese, your slang is very weird. can't bear with it'" FML. Even tough, my friends also said so.

9. I can't memorize things well, except History. hahaha! Last day. I thought I lost my keys. But my house mate found out the keys were on the roof of his car. -,-

10. I don't like men can't speak Chinese. That's why I am not K-Pop, J-Pop, T-Pop fans, although those men are really handsome. LOL.

11. I am a social-awkward person. My circle of friends formed by friend's friends, friend's friends, and friend's friends.

12. I love to eat meat more than vegetables, and I only like Kangkong for vegetables category. I am considering to marry a man who knows how to cook it! hahahaha

13. I love BABY pooh. Don't you think it is cute? But I don't like winnie the pooh. hehe

14. I like sky-blue, white, and romantic purple color.

15. I don't like to drink water.

16. I hate roses. =.=

Roses- my first bouquet of roses I received at Valentines' Day was from my dad. And, he lied me someone sent it to our home. Damn lame right. :)

Smile

Today, I guess I was in a good mood. I was smiling when I was walking, yea, when walking alone. haha. Don't know others would look me as a weirdo or not. ;p I also don't know why it would be like that, I seemed like happier than before. Maybe after I learn don't too care about how others look you. I was used to be very emo when I was at secondary school, don't feel like wanna mention about it anymore. Let's it be over.

I love the way I smile in this photo. I smile, I tough. While, this photo was taken by Joyce in Macau. Get away from all those complicated affairs. I love travelling, I can forget all those unhappy memories. I wish that I can travel to anywhere, whenever I want. Unfortunately, I am still 18, I have to finish my responsibilities as a student, a daughter, and a sister. And I am not so rich to travel around everyday. So, I promise myself, I will get myself a relaxing trip every year. But I don't want go to Hong Kong anymore. It is a too busy country for me. Can't bear with the amount of people when I was there. :(

Today, had my dinner with Bai. :) She treated me again. LOL. So sorry, I never treat her before!! Have to treat her next time. Chit-chatting when we were eating our dinner, not a good habit I know. And, tomorrow is steamboat day!! Eat eat eat!! She is someone who professional in cooking!! I wish I can same as she, then I can cook for my family!

Chat with a friend today! She has two boyfriends at a same time. Okay, she called herself "犯贱的女人", I am also used to call her in this way. Not really like her attitude, I love relationship with only two people, and oppose triangle love. I am freaking sure that all of you know one Chinese phrase "A queen size bed with two people is just right, and with more than two, it will be very crowded." As her friend, I try to convince her in a soft way. "Please make sure who is your MR.RIGHT, don't regret after you lost two of them." Every time, I talked to her seriously, but she was just like don't care about it. I give up. What I can do now, is pray hard. Hope that she will not get too much hurts in the end.

I know my grammar is poor, hope you guys can forgive me. And, I am editing a header for my blog. Such a big and hard work. :'(

Good night!

A new life

Hello 2012! :) I can't believe I am near to 19th!! I miss those days before SPM, it was relaxing than college's life, I can sleep in class whenever I want. HAHAHA.  Okay! Back to the topic.

A list of 2012 Resolutions!

1. Keep fit is always in the top of my list. hahaha. But I always ended up with a FAIL grade.

I wonder when can I slim until 48kg. World is full of delicious foods, you know? It was hard to make my plan succeed. I must and have to keep fit within this year!! Exercise more, eat less!

2. Spend less, and save more.

I think I shouldn't celebrate every big day! My laptop stolen by a fucking hell darn thief at my 18th birthday, and I lost my wallet on the 1st day of 2012. I was so unlucky, I know. Feeling so darn right now #damnit! I lost my gold bracelet my dad sent me as my 18th birthday! A darn expensive and the one I want to keep until the end of my life 's bracelet. Why why why?!!! I am so careless!! Also, some people don't want work hard exist in the world make trouble for others! I have to save save save!! I will be consoled if I see my bank's balance amount is more. LOL. What the heck are they related? I also don't know.

3. Study harder.

Goin' to US study this year, have to work harder, I don't want waste my dad money. The tuition fees, expenditures and accommodation will be x 3.19. So stress.

4. Travel around US

I love travel, and I think I am good enough to travel myself, but my friends always said that I will die and have accident in US. I'm not so weak okay! I was an independent person when I was alone #foreveralone.
I want to feel the snow! But I don't wanna feel the cold weather, I will sick, and I hate sick. Because I don't have boyf can care me when I am sick, so, I have to be strong #likeaboss. ;p

5. Write a novel!!

I believe I can, but I am lazy. Excuse me, I meant in Chinese. Of course Romance novel is my choice. Wait I have a good idea, I will start on it!

What else? I think that's all. Oh yea! Lastly, get a good score for TOEFL and IELTS. Pray hard!!

Here's start with the using of Chinese to blog.

还是我的母语比较可爱。

自行浪漫(leurspropresromantiques)，爱上自行的浪漫，就是一个人的浪漫。

有时候，不一定是两个人才会感觉到浪漫，一个人也可以，这视乎你怎样去想，怎样去看。

以前，我到英迪时，一个人吃饭，会觉得很悲哀。因为习惯了中学的时候，有一大群朋友一起吃东西。

现在，我觉得无所谓。我不是一个很会交朋友的人。仔细想想我的朋友圈子，都是朋友的朋友组成的，我很少主动认识朋友，不是骄傲，只是不懂。天生还是后天是这类人，我也不懂。

哈哈哈！现在的我有一点点地喜欢自己了。

坦白说，以前的我真的很不喜欢自己。LOL 连我自己都觉得自己很坏，何况是别人。

我是坏女人，而我完全不介意你这样讲我。LOL