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  So far, everything seems okay right now. Life is going on at the right pathway. I am having a healthy life that I never had before. I have make a rule for myself, sleep before 12am everyday, wake up at 7.45am to prepare for work. I went for a swim whenever I wanted, even at night, even only alone. I just want to enjoy and relax myself before I am leaving to States. haha. I plan to go for Sauna and gym everyday this week onwards. How awesome my life is. If I want to get this life continuously, I have to study hard, and get a high paid job after graduate. I want to get myself an apartment which would have tennis, squash courts, sauna room, and swimming pool, just like the place I am living right now. Enjoyed enough! I don't wish that my apartment can be super super big, or having a luxurious renovation. I want a comfortable environment, renovation that can let me feel the warmness of HOME. This the the real meaning of HOME. A 4 rooms apartment is the best, a room for myself, a room for dad & mum, a room for grandmas, and a room prepared for my sisters brother when they want to overnight at my place. I didn't really understand how importance my family are for me, by time passes, and I getting older, I just understand how important they are. They are the most precious thing I have, the only people will support me whenever I need them.

  When I was in secondary school. I hate backstabber, lol but I am also backstabber sometimes. Please don't tell me you never gossip about people behind. I don't believe about this, except you are a perfect person. But best friends should never be backstabbed, they don't deserve this. You backstab the ones you are not really know them, because you don't know what they will think if you criticize them openly, you worry they will hate you after this. But trust me, best friends prefer you criticize them openly, rather than become a backstabber. This is what true friends will do. I would feel very angry if I was in secondary school, but now it's okay. lol. I always tell myself, "who never said about people bad things behind, just accept it, care about it will only makes me down, and spoil my mood. They will not have any feelings in response for your feelings". I am tired for friendship hurts. The most hurtful things I had in my life. Still feeling bad sometimes especially when I was viewing our photos. You don't feel hurtful as before anymore, just feel "melancholy". You will always ask yourself, if arguement never happened, how would we be now. Are we still best friends?

  Personally think I am getting mature, I mean mind. However, daily life just as usual. Still very blurred about the small things which my friends think they are very important. Qiu Li worries about me. She always told me, please grow up. Take care yourself. Cautious about everything happens in your life. Not all people you meet in your life are good. Sin Jo and Qiu Li even told me, someday you lost in US, don't phone us, we can't save you. I felt like want to cry that time, I only realize I am leaving. I can't phone them whenever I want. I will miss my family, and my friends. I feel blessed for their appearance in my life. Jesus, thank you for the grace.

  Today I went to Church with Felicia, Celine, Emma and Joyce. The priest told us a very meaningful story. When you are walking on the beach, you will found out the footsteps of you and Jesus on the beach, that time Jesus is besides you, guiding you, going through everything with you. But when you are facing difficulty, you will blame Jesus. Jesus, where are you when I am in difficulty, why you leave me alone. Actually, god embraces you, hold you up. So, you can only see the footsteps of yourself. Yes. Humans always blame god when we are facing difficulty, having a miserable life, but if you are having a blessed life, will you feel much thankful toward Jesus, as you blame god, no right? When you want something, like fortune, you will pray for God. However, when you do something wrong, you don't want get punished from God. Is it fair?

  Relationship. -.- Is it very weird for not having a boyfriend. lol. I didn't get why people always ask me am I having a boyfriend now. Life is still going on, even I am single right. I am just waiting for the right one, not waiting for the one who will accompanies me when I feel lonely. I can do many things whenever I feel lonely, instead of telling a man "I love you, I miss you, I wish you are here with me". Which girl doesn't wish she has a man who can protect her, provides her shoulder when she needs it. But a right one is always better than the best one. :)

  Don't fall into a relationship just because of you desperate for it, choose a right time and right person to fall with. <3