Better

You would feel better with the time passes, you deserve better, you will be okay, don't sad.

These are what we always heard whenever we had something put us into the upset situation.

Yes. My normal reaction was swipe my tears away, and put a big smile on my face. You guys know right? We always don't want others worry about us, but the sadness would still deep inside our heart. 

I thought I am better now, really. I thought with the time passed, I would cure my wounds. Actually, I am lying myself. The wounds are still there, no matter how hard I try to forget, they are still there, always there.They become part of my soul, my identity. I can hide them, but I can't bury them. 

Yes. Sometimes I would feel that I wanna die, then everything will be okay, everything will lost from this world. However, I know that I must live my life until the end, this world still has many things I can't let go, and I don't want let go.

So, I have to cheer myself up no matter how. Take a deep breath, and shout my lungs out, everything will temporary be okay.