EX

Everyone can't escape the fate of being another's ex. Ex brought a lots of memories for us, bitter, sweet, happy, sad, and upset. We can say that, we can't forget who was ours ex. Maybe you will forget someone you liked, but ex will not, he exists in your memories, you exist in his memories.

Someone told me he can't put down his ex-girlf, he still misses her, but what can I help him. I am not him, I can't TOTALLY understand his feelings, I never been through the memories he created with his ex-girlf. Even though, I always told him, you must put down, you must forget her, you deserve better. But I wonder when can he do it, and sometimes I feel guilty to told him so. What I gave him was just a simple console, I am not sure whether he will think that I am only skimp on him not. But what I really wanna tell him is, be happy as far as you can. You know I will always support you right? :) You know who you are.

LOL. My ex. ZZZZZ. Not a good topic. I never had a good relationship before. The shortest, 3 hours. NOT REALLY WANNA TALK ABOUT HIM. The deepest one, is puppy love lah of course. Feeling so awkward to tell about him at here, actually I am not sure whether we had started or not. *bang wall*.

Frankly speaking, I need more courageous to start a relationship. I will regret after accept someone. NOT BECAUSE I THINK I AM CHARMING, ATTRACTIVE, AND I WILL GET WHAT I WANT EASILY. I am not a playgirl okay. I just have too many things need to take into consider, my family and our future. I don't want hurt my dad, and I don't want quarrel with my daddy because of a boy. My friends who knew me know that my dad loves me, and he always give me what he can give, the best he can give. I told him I want study overseas, he will work hard to save money for me, even he is in stress he never told me, but I can feel, I can know it. I can understand my dad scares that I will neglect my study after having a boyf. I also can't 100% GUARANTEE I can concentrate on my study after I have a boyf. FUTURE, the most important. I know it is ridiculous to think so far when I was in secondary school, but I can't stop myself to think about our future, and sometimes I can say it was over, I think until the marriage. You guys can imagine the ending, I ended up with single. Think too much right. I know it is hard to have a relationship which over lasting, but I just which that I can have it, maybe it is a fairy tale, I still want and believe it.

Tell you guys something, if someone I like him 1st, or to be secretly in love with tell me he likes me, I will ran away, and start to hate him. No reason. Just scared. Not by the person, but by a relationship. I have relationship phobia.

I am over-worry right? But still, single life is enjoyable although sometimes feel sad that no one can be hugged, kissed and the most important no one can miss when you 1st open your eyes in a day or before sleep!