Halloween

Happy belated Halloween guys! I know it's quite late. So sorry. I was so busy for my tests before. Of course, busy for parties too! LOL.

As you guys know, Halloween falls at October 31. This year, it's on Wednesday. So, we celebrated the weekends before and after October 31. This is the first year I celebrated Halloween. I didn't really celebrate Halloween back in Malaysia.

What's the most important thing before Halloween? COSTUME! I went to a shop - "Spirit of Halloween" with Dafnie!

Hi Dafnie! You look cool with the mask on! haha

This look so er er CUTE :D

So many choices! :D 

I even saw a couple costume! Bacon and Egg! LMFAO. I love the Egypt and Indian princess costume. They look so pretty, but they're so pricey. I really got myself something here. But I didn't use it for any party. Such a waste. I bought a black and white make up palette, but I don't know how to put it on, and I also bought a pair of zombie teeth, still don't know how to use it. LOL

The 1st event I joined was organized by the Malaysian Students Association. I appreciate the hard work they paid. So sorry I didn't help for anything. I didn't take any photo on that day, I grabbed these two photos from Facebook. hahaha! It's fun! There's free pizza as well! :) Malaysian rock! So sad I can't enjoy the event until the last minute. I went for one hour, and then went back my dorm for study. I had a test on the next day! So sad right! :(

The poster! :) Theme: A nightmare on 10th Street! :)

Pumpkin! O.O These emotion look evil. 

After a two hours study... .... I went to Yi Yang's house with Ee Leng, Luo Rong, and Chin Hua, Chit-Chatting session. We had some drinks (coke? No, it's beers and whisky! :p) , warm up before the next party. I had a bottle of beer and a shot. How I miss! The first time I drunk alcohol since I came to US! I miss my Black Label whiskey mixed with Pokka Green Tea now. :(

Next partyyy, opps. I think it was considered as clubbing. hahaha. It's at Great Wall Restaurant. We were dancing and drinking for the whole night! Thanks JY for treating us alcohol. Me and Ee Leng can't buy, we are not legal to buy drink. The legal age for drinking is 21. :(

#OOTN (blue dress from Forever 21)

Guess?! haha so obvious! My costume was...was... a girl. LOL

So cold. I was wearing denim jacket from Zara. It was 3 degrees Celcius that day. Ee Leng make up theme was a cat girl I guess. LOL. Two of us are drunk, didn't apply blush. #imjustsaying

Next party, a Halloween party at a professor's house. Okay quite cool right. The professor was a DJ of the night. 

Drinking game was in progress. Spot the pilot, mermaid, clown (JY), zombie?! (Yoong Sheng)

Brain jelly! I know. It looks disgusting! But it tasted surprisingly good. lol

Felt the party so boring, so we went back to the Great Wall restaurant to continue our clubbing session. Dance dance dance. I have to mention here, everyone thought I was drunk because I said Hi to every stranger I met at the professor's house. I didn't. I just felt very high lol. Ee Leng thought I was crazy when I said Hi to others at Great Wall.. I was not. I just said Hi to my classmates. We went back at 3. Exhausted. 

On the exact day of Halloween. I went to John's house for pumpkin craving. Uhm. An event organized by BISM, a Christian organization in Bloomington. Before the event started, we went to a church to buy pumpkin. All funds they got, they will donate for Bloomington homeless people. :)

So tiny so cute. I got this. But it ended up with this pattern

Pity this pumpkin. I don't have any artistic gene. LOL

This is Taiki Peter Nakanishi's pumpkin. So big! But it ended up with this pattern.

Taiki! You were so creative! haha. He made us laugh like a mad that day! 

For more photos, kindly click here. Taiki snapped many nice photos! :)

I miss pumpkin seeds. It tastes good after baked. It's what we called as "Kuaci" in Malaysia.

On Halloween weekend, went to another party. Yea I know. Many parties. Huan Chin said I hard core for party. Dang it. 

#OOTN red maxi dress from Kitchen. Sorry forgot to snap full one. I matched my dress with a pair of red kicks from Urban Outfitter, only 9.99 dollars. My costume was a China ghost, but I wonder who got it right, because I didn't apply make up. 

I know yea. Can't see anything. haha It's too dark. Me (left) and Ee Leng (right). The only thing we can see here is Ee Leng's teeth. :O

Chin Hua! I think his costume was a kid. LOL

Best costume! JY! Guess! :D :D He was the clown I mentioned above! 

Still can't get it? He was L in death note! Spot his fingers! :D

We went to Waffle house after the party at 3. Yummy! Love Waffle House's menu. They serve breakfast, lunch and dinner until midnight. I ordered breakfast set. Love pancake, sunny side-up, sausage. I can't live without eggs. Fried eggs, sunny side-up, and scrambled eggs are my all time favorite. lol

Again. The last weekend. I went for a mask party at Great Wall restaurant. FML. 3 continuous party weekends. lol. I think this is the 1st time I really dressed up to match the event. 

Make up of the night. Kind of heavy make up. Yea. I know.. Credit: Lexi King (my roommate) Ee Leng said it looks so ugly because Americans don't know how to apply make up for Asians, as our facial features are really different as them. I quite like actually. hahaha. 

Mask from College mall, only 0.99 cents. :) #OOTN floral dress from Topshop. I did straightened my hair.

Partner of the night! Tracy! She is from Shanghai, China. Ahh! She's so lovely! 

Lurve her! <3

I wore a wrong outfit, should choose a black dress or something shinning. LOL. Sorry. I didn't have so many clubbing experience. Lesson learnt. This event mostly participated by Chinese and Korean. Uhm. Korean boys like to do those "walk dance", my eyes almost popped out when I first saw. After that okay. It's acceptable. Walk dance, uhmm. I defined as boys use their lower part err err rub girls butt. Uhhh. Although it sounds hiao, lol. But those Korean boys will respect you, if you really don't like this action, just say "hands free please", or turn your body slightly right or left, then they will know. :D This is what Tracy taught me. But some girls can accept... err.., it's kind of too over. Like I saw a girl uhmmm WHEN EVERYONE SAW SHE DANCING WITH A KOREAN BOY, EVERYONE FELT SHY. Too sexy. hahaha. RUB RUB RUB RUB. front rub back rub O.O Some people even perform hot kiss, that was their first met. Tracy and me were so funny, we actually calculate the time for them. 5 minutes, rest 10 seconds, then continued. 

On the journey we going back. We were talking this uhmm. We were wondering how can they breath. 4 girls and one boy were gossiping. That boy said "You girls sure don't have any experience before." It sounds sarcastic. All of us asked him "YOU HAVE MANY EXPERIENCES BEFORE". Then the boy felt awkward. Thanks for fetching us back! I forgot that boy's name. One of the organizers. 

This Halloween! Awesome! So outgoing. Yay! :) 

Bye! Longest post ever! :D

Gonna blog about my niece and the world fare at IU next time. Stay tuned. :)

Hi guys. It's been quite a long time since the last heard. I knew I did a blog entry a few days ago, but I didn't really mention about my current life in US. While, as my readers know, I am studying at Indiana University (IU) which located at Bloomington, Indiana currently.

Here're some of the photos about my University! :) All these photos taken by using iPhone 4s and the filters.

The signature of IU, Sample Gate.

The stadium! :) Took this at 7.30am. So it looks nice even unedited :P

Does it looks real? This is shown beside the Musical Arts Center.

Forgot where I took this. But looks nice! I love purple color :)

The TIS bookstore

Indiana promise! :) This is important for the students to know about.

Picnic sessions.

My lovely roommate and floormate! Lexi(Left), Me(Middle), and Andrea (Left)

All of us again! In front of the sample gate.

Oops. Seriously Americans love to jog. You can see people jog everywhere and anytime. Imagine under -1 degree, they can still wear a short pant and jogging. Oh Jeez.

A corner in the Memorial Union. It's a hotel, but students love to study in the lobby. Me too. I love to sleep on the sofa. lol

My major is undecided, but definitely related to business. I love business, and I don't know why. I can feel the excitement when I am taking those business courses. I am trying hard to get into the Kelley Business School, I have to maintain my result at 83 for every subject. Freaking hard -__- But I will try.

Teaching methods in US has a big difference compared to Malaysia. In Malaysia, all I done, was "hard core" for the tests and finals two or three days before, and I just wish I can pass. If I still continuing my study life in Malaysia, planning to get a Bachelor's degree in Malaysia now, I can imagine what happens to my life now. I will have a normal life just like others do. I would finish my degree in 4 years time, maybe work as a normal clerk after I graduated. But I can find my passionate here, all the professors are good. They don't want you leant everything from the textbooks, they want you to do a lots of case study, and don't only memorize the theories, practical practical practical are what they wanted. Of course, you can't bring your study habit from Malaysia to US, you have to study before classes, know what your professors are going to talk about, because what they give you in classes are only brief summary, and revise the class materials after class. I have at least 5 assignments per week. All assignments have to hand in online. Normally, after a class, you will have one assignment for that class. SO, I'M BUSY!

Finished the wonderful part, below is not really a good part, just skip if you don't like. I also don't like this part. Firstly, hands up if you are from SMK, but you didn't speak English when your secondary times school and with your family. I AM! :)

Yes. I am studying in US, but my English sucks. :( I have to say, don't come here if you don't have a strong heart, but fragile one just like me. I can't count how many times I been hurt because of my English, but definitely more than those days when I was in Malaysia. hahahaha

I told Panda, Idk why I can speak English more fluently, but not good in front of Americans compared to Malaysian, maybe I'm worried that I would be laughed by Malaysians. Yes, they did. I had to go for the pronunciation class the first eight weeks when semester started. I don't feel shy to tell this, because I know my English sucks. While, when I pronounce wrongly in front of my Malaysian friends they laughed at me. I was not mad, just got frustrated. Then, they complained to others, I don't want speak English. Fine. I really think about this seriously, I think it's my fault. Since, I'm in US, I should try I should try to speak English, not Cantonese, Hokkien or Chinese, these Asian languages, I can speak this when I back to Asia. I really tried I swear I did try, I want to learn I want to improve. Just like yesterday, when I spoke English to Ee Leng, she just said to my face "Why your English so weird one? I feel like you're reading rather than speaking English" You guys can imagine how frustrated I was, just like a knife stab into my heart. LOL no joke. It felt hurt.  Then I just switch back to my lovely Asian language for the whole conversation, at least I feel safe. So, when you guys know something would definitely hurt you, would you still try? No, right? So, please don't complain me please don't judge me. I know you guys wanted me to learn, but please please don't do this to me. You guys never know what I felt when you guys said this to me. What you guys expected from me. Talk like a native Americans in the first year? I know I am worse than you guys, but I didn't speak English when I was in home. I am trying trying. Can you guys care about my feelings, at least 40%? I know the world is cruel, but you guys are also Malaysian. Why you guys wanted to hurt someone who came from the same country. Or you guys just think I bring shame for our country. All these shits I also don't want it happens in my life. Just like, what they told me, let me lose my confidence at all. I really gave a thought about "Did I make a right choice, did I? Should I just pick up Taiwan, China or just stay in Malaysia?" Do you guys know what you guys are doing? Strangling my dream I dreamt once. But you guys know? You guys care?

I don't think my story can inspire who is going to overseas study, probably make them afraid. But I really wish you guys can be tough, after you go through all these, you can grow, you can improve. I am not. I need some times to adjust my mood. Give me some time............please..........................

I will try I really will try, after I get my confidence back......

Now, I miss my lovely people back to the hometown, the wind, the smell of paddy.

Who cares me, who knows me, who loves me in US? It's so hard to find a person who accepts who I am in US. 

I started to understand the feeling "you would never change the world, only the world changes you."

I need someone to hold me up.....

I feel so sad for those who love to judge people. Not backstab just judge "behind". Hahaha. Even the one who is really close with them, they can also judge her personality. What point you guys make friend with her. Sorry. I just can't accept this happens at this age.




joyce~!! :)

Counting down

I am counting down the date, leaving Malaysia soon. I am so excited, yet feeling so strange. 

Wish everything will be okay. 

I miss my friends. 

郁可唯《好朋友只是朋友》

Er. This is a nice song, really. The lyrics are so meaningful, and really touch my heart. But a few lyrics really not suitable for my thinking, so I deleted them automatically.

Trust me, you must read through those comments under this video on Youtube website. You can find different stories there, and having different feelings when you read through those comment, happy, repentant, and sad.

Fyi :

"好朋友!!

我現在終於可以叫你寶貝了:)) "

"好朋友,您的心意,我真的不能接受,,,, 只因我也愛上了我的好朋友了;.. 每晚陪他到凌晨,朝早上課卻不停地打瞌睡. 眼睛變了熊貓.被家人罵. 雖然如此,可每天都還在期待今天屬於您,和我的晚上, 我們每晚都有聊不盡的話題. 可回到學校,我卻不能正面的找您聊天. 因為,您真的很完美很完美.. 我們認識了多久? 1年?2年?3年?,呵呵, 我想您也忘了,其實我們認識了5年了:) 您知道,我每晚隔著手機.隔著電腦, 不停的告訴您,我很愛很愛您! 可現在,我們卻連朋友都不如. 對.您走了,!您食言了!您說您會回來! 可,現在呢? 在街上遇到,您裝作不認識,那,我也只能裝作不在乎;.. 身邊的朋友以為我放下了,我也以為自己,已經放下了. 可,聽了這首歌,想起從前的一切,眼睛還是忍不住要下雨了.. 您知道嗎,? 我真的以為自己已經放下您了,,, 可,眼淚騙不過自己.. 我想您!我愛您啊!您聽得見嗎?!!! 我想您. "

"坐在你的身邊 就覺得很幸福

唯一的遺憾 是我不能對你說我愛妳

那種想說不能說的悲傷 妳懂嗎?

全世界最遠的距離 真的是我就在妳面前 妳卻不知道 我愛你...

保持距離 因為 害怕有一天 被妳發現 我愛妳

我不敢去想 妳知道之後的表情 所以 一絲愛意 都不敢流露

要到什麼時候 才能伸手 擁抱妳的溫柔..."

"有時想想，都會覺得有些可惜 畢竟我們都曾經這麼靠近終點了 只是可惜，再怎麼接近 到頭來我們都只是好朋友 其實我從來都不後悔告訴你我喜歡你 也不後悔有過那些有些灰色地帶的曾經 即使當時要抽出這樣的喜歡時真的很痛苦 但如果重新再來一次 我還是會無法抗拒地再喜歡上你一次吧 這是我一定會經歷的成長過程 也許在另一個平行時空 我們會是在一起的 那這樣就夠了 至少他們會代替這時空的我們 好好幸福快樂 謝謝你的好以及不好 謝謝有你 我才會遇到另一個更適合我的人 我們都要幸福快樂!! "

"虽然多么不舍得都好，但始终我们还是输给了时间...我们败给了自己...说好会等你的，大家继续当朋友，但自己还是忍受不了这样纠缠不清的感情，多想马上弄清它...但因为开口了，大家就再也回不到从前的感情了...明知你在玩我，我也心甘情愿...怎么被爱的人都那么自私？选择伤害那个深爱着他的人，也不肯面对他...难道说清了，朋友就作不成了吗？为什么你可以那么残忍对待那个愿意用真心对你的人？失去了难道你会开心？我想我放了，一切也该到此为止，就这样吧~"

Aiya. There are many stories, just read through if you are interested.

For me, it's impossible to let me fall in love with my best friend, male and female also the same. Er. It feels so.. Uhm. DISGUSTING. From the first moment I recognize him as my best friend, it is 0% There are differences between boyfriend and male best friend. It's easier to tell your bestie your secret instead to boyfriend. Best friend is forever, boyfriend? Once you two break up, he will appears as a STRANGER in your "dictionary". Aiya. It feels weird to fall in love with your bestie. >< Why don't you just tell him you love him, and if he rejects you, just back to the normal friend. If you worry he will no longer becomes your best friend, or even friend after you told him you love him. This is bullshit. If you choose not to tell him, when he kisses and hugs his girlf in front of you, can you stand it? I can't. I really can't.  If you disguise in front of him, act like you very happy. How long can you stand for it?

It does exist PURE friendship between boys and girls. At least this really happens in my life. The feeling of having a male best friend, tell you, this is awesome. You can tell him whatever shit you want to tell, especially somethings that are really hard to express to your female friends. So, don't get blurred. Best friend will be forever best friend, it's hard for coupling. I wouldn't say it's impossible, but it's really HARD. It might take a moment, a day, a year for you to fall for your best friend, but it might take forever also. <3

It is da best if your bestie and your boyf can be friend. :)

If you can only pick one between your bestie and boyf, which one will be your choice.


OF COURE IS


IS



IS


BESTIE LAH!


HEY BESTIE, BE PROUD OKAY XD

I am stressing. I dobt know what should I pack before leaving to States. I even dreamt I didn't done all my things before the day I'm leaving. I dreamt i have many baggage and I don't know which should I use.

The days in Kedah are precious. I appreciate every moment I'm spending with my brother. I met with my bestie, E-Von. She is one of my best friends, we know since primary school, we crazy together, laugh, and cry together. WE EVEN LIKED A SAME BOY, geng enough! She is so sarcastic, now she still like to joke about me and that boy. I can't do back this on her, because she has a dear boyf now. I found one more disadvantave of single now. TT

That's all for today bye bye!

Decisions making

  I am not good in making decisions. Normally, I heard people opinions more than I picked my own opinion. I can spend many hours to think what I want. And now, I facing the biggest decision I had ever made before. What is it? Picking University to further my study. Damn. I need to think much, the environment, whether I can pass at that University or not, and the most important one is the COST. My result was not good enough to allow me apply for scholarship. Darn. I am thinking about why I didn't think to study at local University. If I'm going to Indiana University, I have to leave at August 3, this year. Seriously, I am not well prepared. My mind and ESPECIALLY my poor ENGLISH! I believe I can strengthen my survival skills when I'm there. God bless.

  Working in office for a whole day ain't comfortable. I have to stick on my chair for a few hours to key in the payment entry, open cheques for suppliers, and bla bla bla. These things need to use two softwares that I never  explored before. Microsoft Excel and Epicor, the things inside were alien symbols and languages for me two weeks before. Now, finally I understand them, and know how to communicate with them. I always learn new things throughout the process of working. Without these nice co-workers, I believe I can't learn anything. I feel thankful.

  The only thing I don't like in the company is they love "boikot", and the co-workers are separated into different groups. I thought this will only happened when we were in secondary schools, guess that I'm too innocent. I don't like this feeling. Lower class will boikot upper class, natural phenomena. Should learn to accept this, and of course you have to learn how to disguise. You don't really know who are good, or bad ones, this is the sad point.

  God. I wish you can make this world nicer, human beings state of mind can back to the time when you first created us. Lots of love. Thanks God.