One year anniversary

     I've been thinking what should I blog these few days. Finally I decided to blog about who I was and who I am now. It is a huge difference for me, my friends, and family.

     I've been in US for 1 year and 6 days I guess. Not to deny my personality has changed and I am super in love with who I am now. When I first came to US, believe me, it was totally chaos. I can't speak English (I can understand what people talking about by catching a few keywords), can't understand the menus, and homesick. Now, my English still sucks, but it's getting better. Normal daily conversation isn't that hard for me. Oh ya, I still facing one shitty problem. I can't get used to talking in English with Malaysian Chinese. I don't know, it's just weird. Probably a Malaysian Chinese criticized my English was weird before. It makes me kind of have phobia right now. wtf right. Yea, this is who I am, have no confidence in myself. lol

     Speaking about personality changes, the most significant difference is that I seldom put myself in a negative state and have negative thought anymore. Before I came here, whenever I am free, I always felt that emptiness deep inside. Probably caused by my family problems. I have a complicated family. My friends always told me how they're surprised when I can get through so many ups and downs without getting crazy. I am a tough woman huh. :) The first few months in US, I had a problem of mingling with American and ENGLISH-EDUCATED Malaysian. Now, this problem is no longer exist. I figured out a way to make myself feel better. *When they laugh at my English, I laughed at their Chinese. It's basically a round.* Just kidding, I never did that, haha I don't want to adopt that personality that I hate that much. An advise for me would be relax yourself and open your heart, it's okay that you speak broken English, as long as you dare to speak, and can bear with all those sarcastic comments lol.

    I should be born in US. The learning experience in US is fantastic. I scored better here as compared to Malaysia. If my English is smooth, it would be more awesome. hahaha. I am living in a small and peaceful town now. Haih. We should have handsome vampires and wolves like the Vampire Diaries here to make this town sounds more exciting. *It is actually not that bad, IU ranked as 1st in term of party university* If someone like Klaus appears, I am gonna be the huge fan of him. LIKE A HUGE HUGE FAN. Off of topic .__.

    YEA, one more exciting news for me! Khor Ching Yee is coming TT So excited. We came from the same primary school and high school. My future housemate <3

    Will blog more soon! Stay tuned.

Dream

Success kid's dream comes true! yay! I just got admitted into Kelley School of Business. :D

Tried so hard. Before I came to states. I had to make a decision between Fisher College of Business and Kelley School of Business. Trust me, it's one of the hardest decisions I have ever made. I worried about whether I can meet the admission requirement, the requirement stated on my admission letter kind of freaked me out. I have to achieve 83 for every subject before I got admitted. Kind of scary. How if I can't meet? Have to transfer school or change my major? 1st choice I labelled it as waste parents' money, second choice is kind of reluctant. I love business, it's my passion. I know many people picked business because they don't know what they want, but I always know what I want. Luckily after two semester of hard work, everything got paid off! I did it! For god sake. hahaha.

So, please don't afraid to make a change you should give everything a try or a shoot, if you can't make it I believe it's still worthwhile because you will eliminate the possibilities of regret!

Lastly! say yay to Kelley and I'm proud to be a hoosier :)

Beb..

It is 3am now.. I don't know why.... I just feel like blogging at this time.. Probably it has been so long so long... I used to be very emo a few months ago.. Almost everyday I felt like there was a stone exert pressure on my heart.. I can't breath... Everything happened around me tended to take my breath away.. I spent my energy, with all the energy I had to hide it.. No.. I didn't hide.. I would rather say "cure"..

I am a sensitive person. Whenever I heard a story, even I was not the character, I still can feel.

I know I know you are my best friend. Even we aren't close like what we used to be.. I thought our friendship is disappearing, everything fades. But why the feeling is still so hurt.. Why I can still feel you...........

You know how hard I tried not to cry yesterday.. I know that's something bad happened on you. I know we aren't close anymore. I didn't expect  you will tell me what happened.. What I can do.. I can only tell you "life is awesome, suck it up and move on".. But after I saw what you replied.. Trust me I heard two hearts were broken..  One is yours and another one is mine.. You asked me to trust you no matter what others say about you...

Memories crossing my mind.... I know you are always a tough person.. I was the one who always cried and you were the one who console me like a big sister. How helpless you are now..... I really hope I was there.. I will protect you with all my energy with my sword with all the things I have...

You are my best friend.. Always do.. No matter what others said.. I will trust you.. I know you better than others do.. We know each other since primary school..

Lemme be the one who can protect you. Even I'm thousand miles always. My soul is there..with you...fighting against all the things that hurt you.. Beb.. Take care yourself.. This is life. Even the one you trust the most will betray you one day.. People go people come in your life..

I really hope you're okay.. You are a good girl.. I wonder why God is there to give you so much... Over the limit you can accept.. God. Please treat her good.

Homesick

  Aww. My blog is dead. :(

  This semester is a busy semester. Fuck all these shits. I am taking 7 subjects this semester, stressing me out. That's fine! I can "conquer" them! :)

  Aww. I had rushed for a business fraternity, Alpha Kappa Psi. It was really a fun experience. However, I failed to get into that business fraternity. Quite upset actually.

  I miss my brothers. Finally got to chat with my youngest brother last night, it's been so long since the last time. When is the last time? Two months ago, I guess? Miss all the things in Malaysia! My family, my buddies, my friends my teacher, the food, the people, and the hot weather!

 

Change the way you think, change the way you live, change the way you love, change the way you hate.

Forgiveness is always the important element in life, but it's so hard, so hard. Especially when you been hurt for such a long time, the feeling you hide, the hatred you have. 

click here  : If you can understand Cantonese great, if not, just read the subtitle.

Yea. No one in this world who has that responsible for you happiness, sadness, you are the one who take control for all your emotions. No one in this world who has to treat you good as his nature, NO ONE. 

Happy birthday Qiuli Teoh!

Movie night - Breaking Dawn Part 2!

Hello! How are you guys? :) I am trying to update my blog as frequent as I can. Maybe two times per week! How rajin I am! :P

Finally! It took forever! Breaking dawn part 2 is here! Oh gosh! I just can't wait for that! I'd been waiting for so long! HAHAHA. I'm Edward's fan, not Jacob's, but I found out many people in US prefer Jacobs. However, I WAS ATTRACTED BY THE TWILIGHT STORYLINE THE MOST, not the actors and actress!

I found some parts of it was kinda boring and LAME, but it's still romantic thou! Girls love romance movie right?! I have to agree what Margaret told, it was not a guys' movie! hahah! Most of the twilight fans would be girls. Boys who watched it probably forced by their girlfriend. :P I love Renesmee the most in this movie. Uhmm. How about yours?

I went to My Thai Cafe for dinner with Tracy and Chin Lin before the movie started.

My Thai Cafe is a Thai restaurant which located at the downtown! Their food taste really really nice! I went there two weeks once. They serve nice main dishes and desserts!

My favorite dish - Green curry! (Sliced potato, eggplants. beef "you can choose shrimp if you want")

Rate: 10/10 <Spicy level : Thai Hot is recommended>

Fried ice cream! People who never tried this before would like it, but not me. Malaysia's is better! :)

Rate: 7/10 

Fresh Mango with sweet sticky rice (Mango, sticky rice, sweet coconut milk)! Love this! It reminds me Hatyai and Alor Star! I miss home! I feel home!

Rate: 10/10 

My Thai Cafe

3316 W Third Street

Bloomington IN 47404-4846

After that, I went to College Mall to do some shopping and plan what to buy on Black Friday with Tracy. Basically, black friday is a crazy sales on the Friday midnight of Thanksgiving week. Many people queue up in front of the mall very early just for the CRAZY SALES, many good deal stuffs offered that day! LOL

#OOTD Winter Jacket (Hollister), Black dot short (Forever21), Purple denim shorts (Topshop), Random legging, Vitello Lux, also called Bow bag (MiuMiu)

Boots (Pay less) I think I bought it for 40 dollars. :)

What girls always do! Selca in the toilet. Tsk! 

With effect! (Line apps)

Tracy was holding a UGG shoe for baby, it's cute but pricey! :O

My face was red. Blame my sensitive skin.

After movie! (Margaret, Tracy and Me) Margaret is an American from Texas! She's so nice and lovely! :) hahaha how funny was she! She spoke Korean when she first met me. I said I didn't get what she trying to tell me, I don't understand Korean! She replied "awh! I thought you know, Malaysians speak many different kind of languages, so I am not sure whether you know Korean or not."

Hell not. We only speak Mandarin, Malay, Cantonese, Hokkien and English (most of us, there're people who can speak Hakka and Fuchou, different dialects of Mandarin.) I wanted to learn Korean tough, I think this language uhmmm sounds sexy. LOL. Unluckily, my Uni doesn't offer at Spring semester, will take it during Fall! Hopefully! :D

Lastly, under the cold weather. It's really cold. -6 degree Celcius.

Have a nice day! <3 you guys!